A message from Pastor James of the Road to Freedom program.
When I was still caught in active addiction, I was holding on for dear life to:
- The role of the victim
- Control: of everyone and everything
And the list goes on and on.
For that entire horrific, at times nightmare of a life, I was holding on desperately to many things, at the center of which was doing things my way. I falsely believed that I was in control of my life. Even worse, I believed I had the right to determine the outcome of people, places, and things in my life. I was playing God. This is a role that I was, and am still, ill-equipped to take on.
Similar to someone clinging tightly to whatever is near them in the midst of rising flood waters, I was clinging to what was nearby, convenient and comfortable. I too was in the midst of a raging storm with rising flood waters, and I was drowning. When a rescuer comes along to help that person, they must let go of what they are clinging to in order to be saved. If I was to be rescued, I had to let go of my will, my control and doing things my way.
“…Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.”
God sent a hero to rescue me, his Son Jesus. He talks about His mission and purpose in John 10:10b, saying, “My purpose is to give them a rich and satisfying life.” This is also described in detail in Isaiah 61.1-3:
“The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is upon me, for the Lord has anointed me to bring good news to the poor. He has sent me to comfort the brokenhearted and to proclaim that captives will be released and prisoners will be freed. He has sent me to tell those who mourn that the time of the Lord’s favor has come, and with it, the day of God’s anger against their enemies. To all who mourn in Israel, he will give a crown of beauty for ashes, a joyous blessing instead of mourning, festive praise instead of despair. In their righteousness, they will be like great oaks that the Lord has planted for his own glory.”
In a moment preceded by desperation, alone in my living room, I let go. My letting go looked like this, “God, I have been doing things my way, and my way is not working. I cannot take this anymore. I cannot do this anymore. I cannot go on like this. I will do whatever it takes. I will do whatever you want me to do. Please help me!”
I meant every word with everything I had. Once I prayed that prayer, once I let go, Jesus stepped in and rescued me. He began to unfold and fulfill His purpose and mission in my life as described in Isaiah 61.
What have you been clinging desperately to? What is your excuse to keep using, to continue with the status quo, to stay stuck in a life that is drowning, overtaking, and overwhelming you?
If life and your drug of choice have overpowered you, if you have thought or said that you cannot handle this, you cannot do this, you cannot take this anymore, you are right! You cannot continue in your addiction and in the same direction you have been going. You need to be rescued! You need to LET GO and let Jesus take hold of your life!
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.”